Thankful for.......2010

So it is Thanksgiving and I feel the need to sit and write about what I am truly thankful for. There has been so much that has happened this past year. I am so thankful for Dennis's health and his recovery from his heart surgery last year. He got a good report from his cardiologist! We are almost done with our adoption situation also and it seems to be moving so quickly! That will be such a load off my mind when everything is done! A year ago it seemed like we were going possibly going to lose our sweet little girl. It is amazing how things in your life can change so quickly. I am so thankful for my son Tyler, and that he is a good kid and not into drugs and being stupid. He has his moments like any teenager, but for the most part he is great. I am also thankful for my son Morgan and that he is able to be back in our lives, he is so funny and has grown into such a great athlete and such a sweet boy. I love my family and my friends and I thank God for them!

the messiness of motherhood

I havent written in quite sometime, so I have decided that today I would make time (for my own sanity) to write. This past week poodle has been sick, so we have been dealing with lots and lots of snot. Not only is she sick but has major terrible 2's attitude. She is so strong willed, that some days I just feel like I am banging my head against a wall. She has taken to NOT eating and throwing her food on the floor (another messy mess!) This has not been good for my carpet or her weight. If anyone has any tips on how to stop this behavior I would appreciate it!
And not to leave out my mouthy teenage son, we will call him Zeke. He has the typical teenage boy hormones anda girlfriend that are about to drive me crazy. He is just growing up way to fast and it makes me sortof sad. I miss the little tiney voice he use to have, and now he is practically a man. It is so hard when they get to that age to try and keep them from making horrible mistakes, that will affect the rest of their lives. That is another mess of motherhood though! All and all I guess I wouldnt change much, I love my little brats more than anything!

Tired

Ok, soooo I really dont want to be whiny or anything, but I am getting really tired of things right now. We were investigated by CPS for the 4th time today. Even though these allegations are all stupid and false, it is extremely exhausting emotionally and physically. I dont know what to think anymore, this family is a huge pain in the ass. I am just angry and tired right now. I dont understand why I am being put through all of this. I feel like we are being harassed and the "family" is just getting what they want. They are still getting visits, which I think is not right. During every visit they pick and complain about everything. These people are driving me nuts. They dont show up for months at a time to visit, but when they do, I am the bad person. Ugh.......... I feel like pulling my hair out. I just really hope this judge sees through all of their crap, and that we have been there this whole time taking care of OUR baby girl. I know that God will take care of this, I just dont know how I am going to get through this for the next 2 months.